Look at it this way, 12 months ago I was unhappy, wallowing in self pity and bitterness, balancing on the borderline between depression and auto pilot mode. I was lonely, kidding myself by saying I was ready to move on (and yes, move on is exactly what I did). I was feeling so guilty about leaving my ex, breaking his heart and taking his son away from him. By the way, I should really add that I'm really not a bitch, generally speaking!
Me 12 months ago |
I know how excited you all to hear about how different I am today so here it is: I take responsibility for my actions. When I make a decision Master A is the first thing that crosses my mind. After a year long battle with my ex that has turned nasty, I no longer feel guilty, as he shows that he has no respect for me. I became comfortable in my own company, even enjoying it. It was then that I met Mr M. He has added joy to my life, but he hasn't "completed" it. I have finally left the past exactly where it needed to be: In the past! This is something that has taken me 5 years to do. Most of all, I am happy! Of course, I have my days where it all gets too much. Who doesn't? Seriously, do you know anyone that doesn't? But the point is, I am much happier, and grown up since being on my own, and that is what tells me I made the right decision.
Me 12 days ago |
Have you ever looked at your past self and not recognized them?
How about someone you know? Or thought you knew?
Good on you Chrissie, it's wonderful to hear that you're feeling like a better person!
ReplyDelete12 months ago I was pregnant and trying to decide where to birth my baby. I was scared and feeling let down by the system. But I just needed to talk to the right people, and that I did, leading to a beautiful home birth! As a result I can say I'm much stronger, much more confident, and much more open minded. xx
I have found that there is always a solution. Never give up, always trust your gut and try and get as much information on things as you can. You can always get through it. That is great that you have come out more confident and open minded, I'm so proud when I hear of other women's growth!
DeleteChrissie xx
It is so great to hear how far you have come and how you can look back and reflect on the past. Good on you!
ReplyDelete12 months ago I had been back at work for 8 months and my little boy was only 14 months old. 12 months on and it feels like I was never on leave and my little boy is growing up so quickly.
It really doesn't take long for them to grow up does it? I can't believe it has been 6 months since I first quit work! And already I'm looking for part time work again!
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Wow u r an amazing woman! Even in ur blogging u can see how much you've grown!! i got (i'm assuming ur 22??) 3 years on u and I couldn't even begin to write such powerful posts like u lol.. I'm glad you've grown in such a positive way :)
ReplyDeleteNow let me see... 12 months ago...
I was a walking milk bottle to my micro sleeper of a newborn son... The last few months of last year were a blur as bubs was a terrible sleeper (woke on the hr every hr and fed for almost an hr..) I spent most of my time trying to find myself and my family again and establish some sort of routine...
I look back at my 'working out of home self' and often think what were you thinking?? I spent more time at work than with my kids. Hows time have changed :)
Thanks for such a great post :) xx
Oh you poor thing! I always felt blessed because Munchkin was such a good sleeper!
DeleteAnd thankyou Lovely! You are making me blush! You're almost right... I'm 23. You are a beautiful person and your comments on the blog (and facebook) always make me feel better :)
Chrissie xx
How the times have changed **
ReplyDeleteSo nice to read Chrissie - think about what the next 12 months will bring as well xx
ReplyDeleteThanks Deb :) I'm looking forward to the next 12 months, especially the next 3-4 months in particular ;)
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wonderful to look back and see growth. I was going through a terrible depression this time last year and today i am finally feeling myself again. Self reflection is a wonderful thing. Great post Hun, keep up the happy vibe on your journey :)
ReplyDeleteThat is great you have managed to get out of your "funk" and feel better about yourself again. Depression is horrible and I love hearing stories of over coming it.
DeleteChrissie xx
It's amazing what having a child will do to you, your self esteem and your self image!
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like it was such a positive experience for you and I'm so happy that you recognize all the wonderful changes you made!
Way to go!!
Thanks for stopping by my Facebook page and I look forward to connecting with you!
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It was great that I was able to take such a negative experience and grow from it in such an unbelievable way. Thanks for your lovely words!
DeleteI'm also looking forward to connecting with you and having a good old read through your blog!
Chrissie xx
What a difference a year makes...
ReplyDeleteChildren force our growth and that is a good thing.
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