I don't really know how to find the words for this post. I don't even really know what it's about. I have just completed mediation with regards to custody of Master A and I'm feeling a little overwhelmed by everything.
I have been a wreck for the last week leading up to this day. Cranky, snappy and tense (a big thanks to Mr M for putting up with me!) I was not really sure what to expect and nervous that things wouldn't go to plan.
Things didn't really go to plan.
But that's OK. I'm OK. It means that things are set now, and we have a plan of action. But then everything else slots in around it to make me tense. I have been searching for a job for around a month now. After countless job applications and emails stating "The quality of applicants were very high and unfortunately, you did not make the shortlist..." I am starting to feel the pinch, both emotionally and financially. My self esteem is being shot to pieces and my purse is feeling ever so light these days.
Mr M and I have decided to move in together in the new year. This will mean lots of posts on moving, organising and decorating (can you say excited?) of course though it also means that I will need to speed up my process of looking for work. My experience is limited, though not non-existent, however my availability is extremely limited, and making things so much harder.
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I have seven weeks left of Tafe on a Tuesday night. I have Master A staying overnight at his dad's once a month until January, then it becomes every second weekend. There is less than ten weeks to Christmas, and we start looking for a house to live in. I have to this time to try and find a job, and get back at an even point in my finances (and complete my Christmas shopping) and attempt to have some savings behind me for my car decides to eventually shit itself (excuse the language but my car has been a major source of financial strain these past few months!)
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Sounds like you have a lot on your plate. I'm sure you'll make it through. Sending positive thoughts your way!
ReplyDeleteThanks Naomi, I'm hoping I come out better!
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wow.. sounds a little stressful, so sending some good vibes to you!! We're feeling the pinch here too.. wanting to buy a property but only on one income.. if I went to work, putting the kids in daycare all day just doesn't work financially!! :(
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Yes I understand that completely. Unfortunately day care can be so expensive. I'm lucky that I have only one child to do that with, and being a single parent I get it much cheaper. It still can suck though!
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You have some really exciting times ahead of you hun which is fabulous, but just make sure you remember to breathe lol. I am wishing you all the best for a smooth rollout of all these changes hun xx
ReplyDeleteThanks Hun, breathing just doesn't happen anymore! I'm sure I'll get there in the end though!
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We've decided to have a frugal Christmas this year (though we do say that every year). Family and friends understand.
ReplyDeleteIt always helps when family and friends understand. It makes things so much easier. Good luck with your frugal Christmas!
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Thinking of you darl. I wish I had a magic wand to wave to fix it all, or even some super-duper useful advice, but all I can offer is my thoughts.
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Thanks Chantelle, how lovely of you!
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You're not alone, I'm reading SO many post/comments etc about people hitting a bit of a financial wall. Heaps of husbands/partners being made redundant, and a lot of mum's trying to find that magical part-time job that'll work around the kids. All I can do is wish you the best of luck, hang in there...
ReplyDeleteI know, everyone is struggling. Unfortunately it is life. And that part time job, it doesn't exist. Mine is going to be extremely hard to work with hours outside of daycare, until I move in with Mr M. But taking what I can get is the only option now!
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Visiting from FYBF, it sounds like you have a lot of changes going on and the stress of it all is getting to you. The update of a night-fill position is great! That should make things a little easier, all the best - I sincerely hope it all works out for you, financial strain is something I can relate to and I am currently on the look out for an ideal second job to slot in amongst the part time one I already have and 3 kidlets. Times are not easy.
ReplyDeleteNo they certainly aren't. Things are hard. I don't have a mortgage to pay for and I'm struggling. I can only imagine those with a mortgage to struggle with as well. Good luck with your search!
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Stopping by from FYBF! My husband and I have been feeling "the pinch" lately as well and have been looking for ways to cut back. You are not alone!
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I hope you are able to find ways to cut back, I would love to and Mr M and I are trying to cut right back so we can afford to get a rental in 2 months. I will pop over and have a look!
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What I love about you Chrissie, is that you're a true survivor. You've had so many curveballs come at you time and time again and I love how you work through the problem. So happy that you found a job! Looking forward to hearing about more good things come your way xxx
ReplyDeleteAww thanks Hun! I try not to sound too "woe is me" but at the same time want to tell my story. This post was a bit more of a vent though!
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Chrissie, that's so wonderful that you landed a job that is suitable and will slot into your life, well done! Hopefully it's just the first of many things that will start going your way xx
ReplyDeleteThanks Kelly! Things are going to be great next year. I have many great things coming, I just need to be patient!
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sounds like you have a good plan to move forward with - congratulations on your job :)
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